I need to just to get this off my chest.
I fell like I can’t be as strong as most people. When people talk to me all serious and give me criticism, I take it to the heart. I feel like I have done something so horrible to them and I break down and I can’t help it. Some people find it annoying, but I’m just a sensitive person. When I yell or get in arguments I cry. And when I find out that I annoy people so much that they just lash out at me and I don’t understand what I did. It makes me feel like, I have done something so wrong. Then you realize that they yelled at you because you annoy them…I don’t know what to say. Then don’t annoy me. I love having around. I feel like they are my sisters. I don’t have a sister to have such a close bond with. My brothers have each other and I have no one. It makes me feel lonely. I don’t have this huge close relationship with my mom, but knowing I have them around makes me feel like, “yes they are my sisters, I finally have someone to have this bond with.” but then I live in this fairy tail land that having this bond will just disappear. Soon we will graduate and what? We lose touch with one another? Everyone is already telling us that the people you are friends in high school won’t be there when you enter college. But I don’t want that to happen. I want to stay best friends forever and when we get married have each other as brides maids… but I guess I have to grow up. Realizing that this may never happen, just completely broke me. I may sound like a whiny little baby, but I don’t want US to drift apart.
So, I’ve learn that I need to grow up and become this stronger person. Its time to forget about all these fairytails.
